So let me first just say, To every one of you, that touched me this past week. To everyone, that read me this week. To anyone who left a comment this week. Thank you. Thank you for still showing me that there are still decent people in the world and reminding this Goddess that I still have this.
It made me want to figure out what I am in control of. Revisit what I want, what I need from this blog. What I want to do in general. What is making me so unhappy? So I finally got really serious with myself and said you have to do this. You have to ask for help, put yourself out there and make this dream a reality. Well, how do I do that?
Never sleep. No, but seriously I have realized that I didn’t want this enough before. I didn’t care enough before. I care soo much now! I have a job, so obviously am now working around the clock so that I can make THIS my career. I mean I actually do love talking to people. I love sharing my truth. I love hearing other people’s truth.
I want to write short stories. Ones about my many comical love affairs. Ones about my scary moments. And all of the other things that I can imagine. Because this brain is full of stories to tell. Fiction and non-fiction and this are my way of inspiring or helping someone through a rough time. Growing up books and music were my everything.
It was so nice to slip into another world. Listen to the lyrics of a song and let it wash over me. It was a healing experience. Music was everything to me. I live and breathe music. It kept me warm on many nights. Got me through heartbreaks and bad experiences. I would say that it was my first true love. Or that boy with the cowboy hat I had a crush on in Kindergarten, but that’s a story for another day.
Then you have books. The fantasy worlds that people imagine makes life seem magical. And I guess it was sort of when I started to believe in the magic of life. I can carry a note, but I am no Adele. Additionally, I am a better storyteller than lyricists. So if my stories could do the same for others as they did for me, then I want that!
I remember reading all sorts of books, but one that always sticks out to me is Lucky by Alice Sebold. The book made me feel less ashamed about my sexual assault. It made me feel like I was a victim but I could survive. Sadly, it took me many more years before I ever really knew how strong it made me, but the seed was planted. My Lotus was starting to bloom.
So just a little peek into my changes. I am working on making guest bloggers a regular thing. I want to help others share their truths no matter what that may be. Maybe the have the one story you need to help you fight for one more day.
I also want to keep sharing my favorite music with you guys. Like I said before, music is a healer and has helped me. So maybe if I can introduce a new artist that will help you then I would love too! Another thing I want to start a newsletter, but I need to hear from you. What do you want to see? What would fascinate you?
I also will be doing a giveaway here soon of a book, that it is awesome. I cried on page four because it really gave me that little inspiration I needed to keep pushing towards my goals and tell my story. Also, I want to give away something else to anyone that signs up for the newsletter, but I haven’t gotten that far lol.
I will, however, share five of the things I did that started my journey to loving the skin I am in, to anyone who signs up. Just know that I do not want to spam you, but as I determine the stories I want to tell I want you to be able to experience them first hand exclusively for being one of my loyal readers.
So I need to know what you guys would like more of. I am just a girl blogging about my life experiences and the lessons I learned. So if you want to ask me questions don’t be afraid.
Would you like me to do a short video?
Do you want to have a one on one conversation!?
Give me some ideas!