“Let someone love you just the way you are – as flawed as you might be, as unattractive as you sometimes feel, and as unaccomplished as you think you are. To believe that you must hide all the parts of you that are broken, out of fear that someone else is incapable of loving what is less than perfect, is to believe that sunlight is incapable of entering a broken window and illuminating a dark room.” –Marc Hack
I saw this quote on I AM THAT GIRL’s Facebook page. And it was perfect timing. I had recently had a conversation with a friend about this very thing. We often hide the dark places in our head. The broken parts of ourselves that we all have but are afraid of getting out. I know that there are moments when people say things to me I just think if only you knew what was going on in my head you would shudder inside. My best friend and I often joke about the dark places, but it is true and the thing is the people who accept that part of you are the people that truly love and deserve you.
For me I truly feel like at this point it is so much more fun being me and true to myself. And that I may be broken inside, but I will not let it break me. I often feel like no one (outside of my small circle) will ever be able to love the person I really am. I know that I am a perfectly imperfect person, but will someone really accept that? Will they accept the scars, the sadness, the pain I carry sometimes and even the scary that is my brain? I have no idea, but I know that the right person should. I at least believe in my heart that love is bigger that perfection and the perfect love is one where two people have accept each other as is. Because you have to take me at my worse to deserve my best. And let’s be honest, my best is pretty darn amazing and I would love to have someone to share it with, but I also want to know that they won’t run when they realize that my worst is worse…
The other thing I talked to this friend about was love. See for me love is many things, but I saw this picture.
I love this definition of love. More so than anything. For me love is many things, but it is the most important thing for me anyone. I think that love is what has kept me going even when I felt like no one loved me or I didn’t even love myself. I still believe in the fairy tale. Well my fairy tale version that there is a person ( or persons , because I don’t believe in ONE true love)who will love me as is and I ready to let this happen.
I just think that we all need to self reflect more and truly start to understand who we are fundamentally at the core of our being. You only get one life and you should try to live the life you love. Sometimes this means traveling the road that no one wants to walk down ever because the trees are over grown and the path is worn. But maybe inside that dark forest there is a beauty that is yet to be discovered. Just take a peek you may surprise yourself.
Send me and email (firstname.lastname@example.org) and ask me a question, if you need a friend I am willing to be that person for you? And if you want me to answer something let me know if I can post it here because maybe your situation can touch another. This blog is for me, but I do it for you.